Jan

27, pregnant, due on 06/01/15 after ttc-ing for 2 and a half years. Warning...this blog contains lots of cats!!

princessofgenovia:

hurricanelaura:

therecoverybitch:

elizabeth—avenged:

kel-belle-batty:

the-girl-without-ed:

bebravebecca:

just a few things that I have learnt and that I think are very important for everyone else to learn too bcos science = amazing

this is so informative and helped me so much

Starting to understand that the illness can be “set off” by unrelated life circumstances is eye-opening. I need to remember this.

Amazing information!

WHAT. 

WHAAAAAAT.

Is there a source for this oh well I will just look it up myself because WHAAAAT. I knew they were genetic and comorbid with other mental illnesses but that’s pretty much all I assumed, I had no idea about this insula. Must research. 

The “inadequate nutrition” thing definitely holds true. All my life I never gave a flying frickity frack about food—or, to be honest, I DID give a flying frickity frack. I used to be a total foodie. I ate with utter pleasure. And I ate anything. I loved food and I still really do; I still AM a foodie (who has trouble with food). 

But I guess three years ago my diet starting going to crap with my other habits. I mostly drank, didn’t eat very well or much because I had a weird sleep schedule. I used to stay up for two-three days at a time, sleep four hours a night, or be awake around the clock with intermittent naps. I lost some weight, was pleased, but knew I had to get my life in the line. 

So I when I left my old school and came back to my hometown, I started attending to a better diet, running, researching more about nutrition, running more, dieting more, vomiting more, eating less, running more, eating less, running more… 

And I remember every time my weight got lower I worried more and more, and I wondered if I had an eating disorder, and it took me starting to really panic about my health then going to the doctor to actually acknowledge that I could and should call it such a thing. 

That’s what’s so WEIRD. They just take you over. It’s like there was somebody else wearing my skin and pretending to be me. There came a point that I knew what I was doing was bad but I couldn’t stop it, it created a system of perfect order in my life (or so I thought—it was the only thing I felt was important and everything else was an interruption). It’s just weird to see how in denial I was of my own self harm. 

The psychology that goes on in an ED truly is a tangled mess. I still have a lot of that tangle to unravel. Jesus H I hope I can. 

"It’s like there was somebody else wearing my skin and pretending to be me. There came a point that I knew what I was doing was bad but I couldn’t stop it"
At both my highest and lowest weights this and yet now I don’t even feel like I know what I, ME am actually supposed to look like or look like at all, trapped in skin from obesity, weight restored from looking like a living skeleton now living with swollen eyes and swollen face of bulimia, I have always looked like a walking eating disorder to myself and I am still stuck.
Omg I appreciate your posts so much

bcfurs:

"i’ve never watched lord of the rings"

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"there’s no character development"

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"the movies are too long"

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"it doesn’t even make sense"

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theepunkerchick:

bloodonhisfangs:

joshmosh415:

I can never stop posting this. The narrow minded bible fanatics that just look at one small thing in the bible then feed the world with their hate over it. At the same time they ignore all the other silly laws made by man they claimed were made by god. These gif’s say it all.

Exactly!

Omg this was best post I’ve seen today, I will never scroll by this. EVER

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